Tag Archives: change

Dec 31

I am me

I Am Me
-Virginia Satir

In all of the world there is no one else exactly like me.
Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine Because I alone choose it.
I own everything about me, My body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all of my actions, Whether they be to others or to myself.
I own my fantasies, my dreams, My hopes, my fears. I own all my triumphs and successes, all my Failures and mistakes, because I own all of me.
I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know, but as long As I am friendly and loving to myself I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and for ways to find out more about me.
However I look and sound, whatever I say and do and what ever I think and feel at any given moment in time is authentically ME.
If later some parts of how I looked sounded, thought, or felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which was unfitting, keep the rest and invent something new for that which I discarded.
I can see, hear, feel, think, say and do.
I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, to make since and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, therefore I can engineer me. I am me and I am ok.

This is one of my favorite poems. It helped me during the awkward teen years. Hope you enjoy it.

Till next time…

Dec 31

Walking a path

SO today I want to talk a bit about paths…..Everyone walks a different path…Some walk hand and hand…Some walk alone…Some ask for help and others well…we offer yet they seem to never catch on. God never promised for the path to be straight and there never to be a bump in the road. It seems these days with everything that is going on we seem to see more bumps in the road then we see the silver lining. My path may not be what most people would consider to be the right path but it is the right path for me…I am thankful for the people that I have chosen to walk this path with me. The people that have become my chosen family..Don’t get me wrong I love my family but some things they just will never understand, Nor do I think I ever really want them to.

In 2012 I want to make some changes that will help me be better to me and the chosen family reminds me of this everyday. So thank you Chosen family for your love and support and for believing in me! Your support already in my changes that are coming have been great. Together we are going to make 2012 a great year.

We are only as good strong as our weakest one, so together we are unstoppable.

Till next time…

Dec 29

What would I do if I wasn’t afraid….

As I was talking with a co worker today about things I want to see change in 2012 she asked me a very interesting question……….What would you do if you weren’t afraid? I had no answer at the time but have been thinking about it since then. So here are a few of my thoughts on this:

-If I weren’t afraid of what people thought of me I would let people see the real me.
-if I weren’t afraid of failing I would already have my own studio and be doing what I love to do for myself.
-if I weren’t afraid to share my feelings with people they might actually know me better
-if I weren’t afraid of getting my heart broken I would let people closer to me
-if I weren’t afraid of the unknown I would be able to let go and not always have to know what will happen next.
-if I weren’t afraid of death I could accept the fact that I’m not going to be around forever and start telling people in my life what they mean to me(I have been working on this one)
-if I weren’t afraid of going places by myself I would get to see more things, ex. art museums, parks
-If I weren’t afraid of change I would have already finished school, stuck with my weight loss goals, being big I just kinda blend in stay out of the spot light. So now that I have a plan I’m going to change this :0)

There this is a good start to this list. At least all I’ll bore you with tonight ;0)

Till next time…….

Dec 28

The game plan….

The New Year is just around the corner and I am getting my things together to make the transition for change to take place.  I did really good last year for 2 months and then I fell off the wagon.  Not gonna happen this year.  I am determined to make this happen.

So with this being said…I am going to journal my food intake and stay under 1200 calories.  Adding more veggies to my diet.  That is tough for me.  I hate veggies.  Gonna start eating breakfast….PROTEIN!  I also wanna incorporate eating more than 2 times a day.  That is a must.

I start back to school on the 9th and they have a workout facility there so I am going to be checking that out.  I want to walk the treadmill a few times a week.  If the school doesn’t work I am going to use the gym down the street.  I am going to do this.

I will be posting my progress and a pic or two here and there.  I am looking forward to this journey.  THanks for stopping in.

Till next time…..