May 6, 2014 Turn the page….

What a week it has been….I saw the Indigo Girls with The Columbus Philharmonic…from the 3rd row.


They were amazing!  Then there was one of my favorite Christmas presents…Tickets to see CHER! Not third row but still good seats.  Not bad for a cell phone shot I think….



Then I saw a group called Black Violin.  If you haven’t heard them google them or check out youtube.  they have Facebook, twitter and Instagram.  They were amazing.

Better then I could have hoped.


Busy busy…..

Then there was graduation….what a busy day that was.

However it was worth it.


Another dream fulfilled.  I am truly blessed.  I’m the one with the thumbs up :0)

As I sat with my classmates and I looked around I wondered if everyone was thinking the something. Now what?  I know I am looking forward to reading a book that does not include a quiz the next day or a comprehensive exam attached to it at the end 🙂  I am looking forward to a little R&R before I have to figure anything out.  I hope to work on my photography this summer and to get my house in order.  I have neglected it just a little bit.  I want to work on me.  To be the me that I am intended to be.  Who Am I here is a poem that has helped me out a lot along my journey…..


In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me.
Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine,
because I alone chose it
– I own everything about me:
my body,
my feelings,
my mouth,
my voice,
all my actions,
whether they be to others or myself.
I own my fantasies,
my dreams,
my hopes,
my fears.
I own my triumphs and successes,
all my failures and mistakes.
Because I own all of me,
I can become intimately acquainted with me.
By so doing,
I can love me and be friendly with all my parts.
I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me,
and other aspects that I do not know–
but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself,
I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me.
However I look and sound,
whatever I say and do,
and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time
is authentically me.
If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting,
I can discard that which is unfitting,
keep the rest,
and invent something new for that which I discarded.
I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do.
I have the tools to survive,
to be close to others,
to be productive,
and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me.
I own me,
and therefore,
I can engineer me.
I am me,
and I am Okay.

Here is to the next chapter of my life and to being me.  If you dream it you can be it!






closer and closer….

Boy the last week seems like it flew right on by….

Two exams left and my Associates Degree in Communication will be finished.  I just can not believe that I really did it.  It helps when you have a great support group and I surely do!  From texts, to pep talks, to a good kick in the pants from time to time…..It has taken a village to get this girl where she is now.  

Picked up the cap and gown today.  It is out of the bag and hanging up…..I don’t look good in wrinkles :0)

Speaking of looking good I measured on Sunday.  I am now 11.25 inches off of my body science the beginning of March.  4 pounds all together but my clothes show a different story.  I believe that I told you all in my last blog that my doc told me to throw the scale in the trash.  I figure when I go back to her in June I’ll weigh in then.

Still walking and enjoying that.  Bought a air pump for my tires for the bike.  Can’t wait to check out the trails near my house.

I feel like my dreams are finally happening and it all started with me getting my own head wrapped around the fact that I am good enough.  I am smart and I can achieve anything I set my mind to.

With that said I am off to study for finals.  Wish me luck.  I’ll tell you all about graduation soon!

An update

As I sit in my study room I thought I would give an update on my journey.
I haven’t been eating right and I know that. Still been under my calorie counts but not eating food that will help me with weight loss. I really need to work on this. The scale shows no change however…..The inches are falling off. Due to more walking I’m sure. 7 inches off my body in 22 days! 2 alone on my waist. We will call that a win. (insert happy dance)
I didn’t walk much this week due to some stomach issues but I am planning a big come back…..I have a good support system that I need to use more often. I also got a fitbit and let me tell you i love it! It keeps track of so may things and keeps me accountable. If you have fit bit and want to buddy up send me message. we can challenge each other! Being able to see my sleep patterns has helped me adjust when I need to go to bed as well. Love it!
I can tell a big difference in my stamina when i don’t walk so that is getting moved back t the top of the list of things i need to do for me.
Speaking of wins….school s going relatively well. One class I am struggling in but I think I am working it out. Ok my struggling and yours may not be the same, I have an A in the class but i keep failing the exams. I know the material but I’l be danging if I can get it right on the test. Talked with the prof and he gave me a few ideas. We will see if that works.
That pretty much sums up the last few weeks for me.
Hope all of your journeys are successful!

What to do on a rainy day

As I sit in the cafeteria at school I can’t help but think about the rain this morning. Though we need the rain for the grass to be green and for the lakes to stay full I selfishly wish it wouldn’t have rained this morning. Why you asking yourself. Well forts off my dogs had to go out. Not that they really care whether it is raining or not but I had to go out and chain one of the dogs to a tether. She has proven herself as an explorer and well I wasn’t giving baths or combing anyone out before school today. Then there was loading the car for school. That has its own problems. I didn’t park he car where I should have and it took longer to get it he back seat to put my bag back there. Which normally doesn’t matter right. But it does matter when it rains.
The best part is there is a parking garage at school. So once here I don’t have to go outside. The highlight of he day thus far.
Thank God the move is pretty much complete. We just have clothes there that need to come to the new house. Talked about doing that today but I, so not moving In the rain.
Maybe I can talk the powers that be to help me get some boxes empty so I don’t trip in the dinning room in the morning sconce there is no light.
I got a fitbit. I have been enjoying seeing my sleep patterns which have been bad the last week. Very restless sleep. But it has become a great game with me and roommates mom. Every time I get close to betting her in steps she goes for a walk…lol I have been making an effort to stay under 1300 calories. Need to add more veggies to my diet. Something I struggle with but need to make it happen. It helps that we are all counting calories and learning about portions which is a big step in our house. More salads for low calorie meals I see in our future.
School has been very writing intense and I am doing my best to keep up. That and moving has been a lot on my plate. I have to remember one day at a time. Some days that is easy and other days I am over welded. Guess we will see if matter wins out over will.
Those are my thoughts this morning. Thanks for reading :0)

Life as I Know it

Thought I would take a minute and get a few things my mind.
School is going well. I am keeping up and my grades are above the class avg so I will take that as a win. Three classes was a little much but I am doing ok. It is odd not being the oldest in some of my classes this semester. Make the discussion boards much more interesting.
The move has had it’s ups and downs. Have 3/4 of it done. I have like a ten foot section left to paint and some wall paper to put up and we will be ready to empty some boxes :0)
The blog is still going well! Who knew I could stay loyal to something for the long.
Being the visual person I am I have been checking out tattoos around campus and have been wondering why people get them. The women sitting in front of me today has a tat that says cowgirls don’t cry. It’s in cursive. She doesn’t look like a cowgirl but then again I don’t know her. Then there is the people I know that just get a tat that they thought looked cool on the Internet. That’s should mean something people….they last forever. There should be thought involved. All 4 of mine have a story. Ill post mine soon and tell that story!
Guess I should get to my first class.
Till next time that’s what’s on my mind!

3+ months is a long time

Where do I even begin…
I took the summer off to work on a new house. Yep I am moving again. God works in mysterious ways. Life is good.
School started last week. Going to be an inserting semester. Really a writing intense time and I am good with that my brain needs a challenge and I am up for that challenge.
I was looking thru the school newspaper and my name is there. I made the deans list last semester! So life is getting on track. Thank God!
So what do I want to accomplish the next month.
I want to be moved in by the end of Sept.
Going to keep my grades up and try to stay ahead of the game.
Get on a schedule
Try out my listening skills.
Read the paper every Sunday
Look for a internship
Ride my bike more
Learn to just be
That’s a good start. What will happen…..we will see!
Stay tuned!

schools out and the projects are pilling up

Well Geology didn’t kill me thank God!  I even pulled an A out of the class.  Not sure how but I’ll take it :0)  Got a B in my Com class and I am ok with that too.  Which put me on the deans list, which got me a book scholorship.  Gotta love that for sure!

I have lots of projects on my plate for summer.  I had a huge garage sale,  I need to Ebay a bunch of things that just need to go away.  I have painting at the house to do, flooring to have someone come and lay, and of course pictures to take!  Working on a big scan project as well.  Now the dang scanner is putting a digital line on the pictures and I cant get tech support on the phone so I am waiting on a email back.  I hate waiting.  This is Gods way of slowing me down.  I am still sending out a letter or a card a month and that seems to be fun for people as well.  Good for me to remember that people like to get mail that isn’t a bill or junk!

My other blog is going well. This picture a day project has really been fun.  I have been doing it everyday and it seems to bring out the creativity in me a bit.  Funny how such a little toy can brin gme joy during the day.

I had an aunt pass this week.  Was going to go to the funeral but the family couldnt get it together in a manner where I could attend so I will have my own service for her.  Sissy was a great woman and will be missed.  She was the last of the sisters in my mothers family….Sissy you were amazing and I miss you already.

Well I guess I should get back at my projects.  I hope to blog a bit more on my projects as the summer goes on.

April 24, 2013 rain and my thoughts

As the semester comes to a close I stop and ponder on what I have been doing the last 16 weeks. Geology all though really hard last semester has gone pretty smooth. Right down to the travel pamphlets we have had to make for the different time periods. I have adopted 2 jelly fish into them…Ernie and Burnie from Shark tales. They have had a cafe in everything period in history. Singing songs like “it’s getting hot in hear let’s keep on all our clothes,” “everybody walk the dinosaur,” and there famous hit, ” we are going to need a bigger boat.” All funny spoofs for my prof.
Comm class has gone well. I mean I can talk to a tree so it can’t be too bad right….right.
Today is full of rain……hate the rain…but it is better then the white stuff any day.
Met some great people the semester that I hope to continue contact with. Most in my field of study which is always good.
One more week of school. 2 classes and I can sell my books!!!!!!
There has been a lot of terrible things I. The world the last week…the bombing in Boston, another shooting, week before that a college kid knifing his fellow class mates. This world is a crazy place. My prayers are with the families of the victims and the family’s of the accused. They all have different demons they will have to fight.
Best news is my beautiful niece got into CTC and she gets the field of her choice. Only 2 others from her school got accepted into her program. I am so very proud of her.
My bicycle is now ready to hit the trails. Got it all cleaned up and ready to go! Now I need a dry warm day.
Have a great day world. Lets go out and be the change!

First week of Feb has been odd!

SO here we are at the 7th day of February and it has really flown by. School feels like I just started yet I am a 4th of the way thru. My BFF had a birthday and that started out with a broken window. LOng story short they broke the window ($213 later) and took nothing. Now in theroy it could have been the cold and a rock but I’m not buying that…too many other weird things are happening around our home for it not to be a random accident but I could very well be wrong about that too :0)
I have kept up with my picture a day for a month and 6 days. Mr P has been a great addition to my creative side. People seem to like him as well.
It is really weird looking around campus and seeing all the young kids looking at the world as adults for the first time. If I could go back and talk to myself 25 years ago I think it would go something like this….

Hey you…..I know this is going to sound really odd but just listen. Spend as much time with your mom as you can you are going to loose her way before you are ready to….and call her each and everyday. You are going to be a lesbian and that is ok. Deal with it. Its not a bad thing. You are going to meet some people that will take advantage of you so you need to learn early to stand up for yourself and you will have less heart ache. You are going to have a great job opportunity. Stock money away but dont tell anyone that way you will still have some when you loose that great job. DOn’t let others tell you you cant do something, You are smarter then anyone even yourself give you credit for. Open up to the people close to you. They do care you just have to let them in.
How do you know that you are talking to the older version of you. Only you know that you had a falling in love with your now BFF long before either of you really knew or did anything about it. Your first apartment will be where you learn the most about yourself and who you are going to be. Learn and know that you are not as broken as you think you are. So with that I want you to know that you are not alone. Stand up for yourself and be the incredible person you are suppose to be.
Love, Me

With that I need to go to class.

What Else I think today

I got new glasses yesterday.  Normally that be a big deal but I am amazed at the fact that I can actually see better.  I knew I needed readers, I do a lot of computer and close up work but I also had to get a bit of help with my distance.  I can see things don’t get me wrong but, I can now see them clearly :0)  Didn’t even know this was a problem.

Had my first lab today.  Geology my old friend is back again.  This time with more historical things for me to learn.  Keeping finger crossed.  However I am going to need to get a smaller group.  One of the guys is great and the other two are just waiting for someone to give them the answer.  This could be bad.  First lab and only one question confused me.  That is progress being I didn’t get most of the last labs till the end :0)

Why don’t people talk in the elevator?  Is it because they have nothing to say or the fact that they think the other person really doesn’t care what they have to say.  I am a talker.  I talk to who ever when ever really.  Just in general stuff…what floor, have a good day.  I even say good morning to my fellow class mates as they com in the door to class.  I think this is a good thing and I am not going to change that.  Not one bit.  As a matter of fact I may even do it more :0)

I am really enjoying my picture a day assignment!  Mr P and I are making our rounds.  Thinking he may need to go on a vacation with someone…where should he go?

Well I am making tacos for dinner tonight.  Guess I should go get that ready!

I need to make me the change!  Make a difference!