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Jan 11

Weigh In Day

Well there is good news and bad news. As luck would also have it a story to go with it.

I had my normal morning classes and then headed to the gym for weigh in day.  I did my normal routine….Put it on the last weigh in take a deep breath and let it out and step up.  When I did I got a shock…It said I gained…not only did I gain but I gained 2 pounds. I stepped of and did it again.  In disbelief I got on the treadmill and tread for my 40 minutes to figure out what in the H$&# I could have done to gain 2 pounds.  I knew there had to be something wrong.  SO I head back over to the scale and I do my routine again..this time looking down and realizing I still had my shoes on.  Who knew my shoes weighed 2 pounds.  I’m sure some of you did…lol  I kicked them off and am happy to report that there was no gain of weight!   That was enough to get my heart beating rapidly for sure.

No weight down but 3.5 inches off my body.  I’ll call that a WIN!

TIll next time…..

Jan 6

Another day another…

I was wide awake at 7 this morning and by 730 I was headed to the gym.  I get there sign in head to the work out room.  All the treadmills are full.  My brain says go home come back later.  But I didn’t listen to that.  I put my stuff in the little cubby hole and headed for the stationary bikes.  I got new ear phones (see previous post) put them in my ears and away I road.  I just thru several songs on the mp3 player and as I rode along I laughed several times at some of my song choices:  I like to move it (which is a fav) Dancing Queen, Whip it, 1 2 step, several Prince songs, Just to name a few. It sunny that all the songs had a happy memory attached to them…made the ride very funny for me.  Then I worked out my core on the machines.  Tried to do an extra rep on each machine.  Figure I will up it every time I go and try to build more muscle.  One day at a time.  SO we will call this a win day at the gym.  Changing up cardio is probably a good idea every once in a while anyway right!

Got home and fried a pound of turkey bacon…No I didn’t eat it all. Only 3 pieces.  It was really good but now I have some for the rest of the week already cooked.  I can have on sandwich’s or salad.  Another win!  Had 3 scrambled egg whites also!

This weekend will be a test for me.  I had an aunt pass away and for as far back as I can remember the family eats when we are all together.  This will be my first test of will power.  I have my mind in the right place so good lord willing I can stay strong on the food front.  The second hardest part is knowing tat my aunt looks just like my mother that dies several years ago.  So it will be an emotional time as well and what happens during emotional times…I have been known to eat.  SO far I am doing good with this.  Like I said before I am luck to have the support group that I have in place this time because failure is not an option.

Busy weekend so I’ll try to blog when I can….Till Next time……

Dec 31

I am me

I Am Me
-Virginia Satir

In all of the world there is no one else exactly like me.
Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine Because I alone choose it.
I own everything about me, My body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all of my actions, Whether they be to others or to myself.
I own my fantasies, my dreams, My hopes, my fears. I own all my triumphs and successes, all my Failures and mistakes, because I own all of me.
I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know, but as long As I am friendly and loving to myself I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and for ways to find out more about me.
However I look and sound, whatever I say and do and what ever I think and feel at any given moment in time is authentically ME.
If later some parts of how I looked sounded, thought, or felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which was unfitting, keep the rest and invent something new for that which I discarded.
I can see, hear, feel, think, say and do.
I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, to make since and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, therefore I can engineer me. I am me and I am ok.

This is one of my favorite poems. It helped me during the awkward teen years. Hope you enjoy it.

Till next time…