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Nov 27

The journey

As we each know in our own way, we sometimes take a step forward to take 2 steps back.  I have fallen and gotten back up more times then I can remember but the good news is I have gotten back up.

Physically I have been slowed down to a crawl for the last 3 weeks.  I took my shoe off and caused a tendon in my foot not to be happy.  Moon boot has been on and it is getting better but not as fast as I would like.  With that being said I have been able to get my mind and heart a little better in tune  with what I want to see happen in my life.

I am a procrastinator.  I have all these great ideas and my follow thru has been terrible.  Thru this whole sit on my behind and rest phase of life I have been able to organize my thoughts a bit better and get a grasp on what I need to get better at in this regard.  I am working on getting my cards on Etsy and eBay….Ill share that with you when I get the stores published.  I did become a business last month.

I will be doing better for my health as well. I have put me on the back shelf to get other things done and I am telling you that that is changing.  If I don’t take care of me no one else can.

With that being said I am ready to re commit to giving the world the best me that I can. Be looking for more updates!

One day at a time!

Ohiophotogrl

Sep 8

Been a little while

Sorry for being away so long.  Life has a way of getting in the way of taking a few minutes and regrouping….yeah know.

Anyway…Life is good.  My business is picking up which is a good thing :0)

The weight loss journey has had it ups and downs but I do have this to share:

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In January these were tight and now I can say that I am down pretty much 4 pants sizes.  Scale hasn’t changed much but when I saw this picture it gave me the faith to keep on keeping on.  People tell me all the time that it looks like I am dropping weight….Now I believe them!

Still struggling to give up pop.  Need to work at that a little harder.  More water.  More exercise.  Its almost the cold months so Hopefully I can get back in the grind of things!

Anyway thanks for stopping in!

Ohiophotogrl

Jan 23

Jan is on the way out….

Well the month of January only has about a week left so I thought I would update my life changes.

Last week I am pretty sure I had some of that flu crap that has been going around.  But I will get back in the groove soon!

I got signed up for a web design class that is next week.  Looking forward to getting my photography stuff put on an actual web page.  I even signed up for a digital video class.  I am looking forward to seeing what all I can learn.  They will help me to broadcast my own show.  I have a lot of ideas I just gotta get them all out :0)

I have been drinking a lot more water.  Got signed up for the local gym and have been going 3-5 times a week.  Sure does help get me going in the mornings.  Staying within my calories.  I got a scale.  I am only using it once a week when I measure.  So far 2 pounds gone so we are calling that a win :0)

Been putting together an easy store to sell my cards.  I just gotta get the cards together and a catalog of sorts to keep track of what I have.

I am feeling better and better! life is going well….One day at a time.

 

Dec 31

End of 2014

Wow what a year.

I received my college degree in May! Never really saw that happening!  Wooop Wooop!

Got to see Sanibell Island. Got to see my first in the wild alligator. He was a pretty quick fella!

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Then there was the Scotty Convention….Where I got to spend some time with some of the Duck Dynasty cast!

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I am truly blessed to have so many people in my life to help me on my journey.

I dropped 14.75 inches off my body in 2014.  Never to be seen again.  I don’t own a scale so that update will come in Feb when I go back to the doctor.

Thank you for being a part of my blogging life.  I have enjoyed sharing stories with you and hearing your comments.  Ive enjoyed getting to know you along the way as well.

Here is to a 2015 that is full of dreams fulfilled and love beyond our imagination. See you next year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

LOVE,

OHIOPHOTOGRL

 

Dec 30

Playing back Christmas pictures….

As I sat this morning cleaning off my memory cards from Christmas I came across this one.

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This is what we have instead of stockings full of stuff.  As my father tells the story this is what his treat was as a child.  My father grew up in Newhall West Virginia and is one of 13 kids.  They each had a brown paper sack on christmas morning that had one apple, one orange, some walnuts, a candy cane and some sort of candy that they liked.  My father has continued this tradition with us. He now just sets it on the table but the Memory is still there.  We snack on this while we are waiting to open gifts and through out the holiday season.

I love that I have so many memories from my childhood that are still in effect today!  Makes me truly blessed!

Dec 29

What now…

So I have caught some kinda cold :0(  Pretty sure my sister gave it to me over Christmas.  So as I have been in a cough syrup funk the last few days, I have been thinking to myself, where do I want this blog to go.  I am a photographer yes and I am working on a website for that.  I have my muses website (www.mrpsadventures.com), but what about this one.  So this one will be a little bit of this and a little bit of that.  Some of you will dig it, some of you won’t. That OK!

As the year comes to an end I am grateful for all I have learned from your comments and from reading your blogs as well. On the first I am going to list my goals for this next year and with your help I can put a big dent in making them a reality.

I have started an accountability group on Facebook.  Some past coworkers, high school buddy’s, friends and I are helping one another stay on track.  It has been a blessing being able to be a light at the end of the tunnel.  We aren’t perfect, you know that and so do I.  Sometimes we just need someone to say that s ok you can start again tomorrow. That what we all need.I am really looking forward to seeing where this leads us all.

Thanks for being a part of my blog!  Thanks for reading, commenting, following!

You never know what will happen next!

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Dec 18

Everyone has that one gift they always remember

Growing up I only remember my mother wearing 3 different pair of shoes.  Dress shoes on Sunday, crappy shoes that she had forever to do lawn work in, and loafers.

Up until the year she passed away my father would go out the week before Christmas and go buy her the same pair of shoes….EVERY YEAR.  He would go into Elder Beerman and walk up to the shoe counter and get the same size 8.5 pair of shoes.

On Christmas there would always be a shoe box wrapped by him and she would say….I wonder what is in this box.

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As you can see it was her favorite gift….lol  Now that I am older I am pretty sure it was her fav because my dad went out and bought it himself.  Every time I see a pair of loafers I am reminded of the many years of mom unwrapping the loafers and always acted like she had no idea what was in the box.

Aug 19

Who knew….

So I have been walking again.  I know its bout time but I am doing this and feeling good about it again :0)

Last week I logged 28.74 miles and 66,620 steps.  I feel good about it too!

One step is better then one more second on the couch for me. I was going to skip it today and just sleep in but God had other plans.  I woke up from a crazy nightmare and thought well I’m up I might as well walk it off and I did!  Saw a beautiful sun rise.  I am blessed.

I am drinking more water again and eating better and am feeling good!  Started measuring again this week so I will get back caught up with that on my next blog.  Watching my BP.  I am on meds but my BP is way low compared to what it has been to get me on said BP meds.  I go to the Doc in 3 weeks and I am going to talk to her about that.  If it stays low I may have to adjust by calling her.  We shall see.  My BP after a 1.5 mile walk and a 25 minute bike ride in the humidity was 117/63  that seems a bit low but Im watching it.

Other then that life is what it is.  

I made zucchini bread from scratch.  Let me tell ya it was WONDERFUL!  Neighbors liked it and I am taking a piece to my dad and sister the rest well….its mine :0)

well that is my update…..till next time…….

May 7

May 6, 2014 Turn the page….

What a week it has been….I saw the Indigo Girls with The Columbus Philharmonic…from the 3rd row.

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They were amazing!  Then there was one of my favorite Christmas presents…Tickets to see CHER! Not third row but still good seats.  Not bad for a cell phone shot I think….

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Then I saw a group called Black Violin.  If you haven’t heard them google them or check out youtube.  they have Facebook, twitter and Instagram.  They were amazing.

Better then I could have hoped.

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Busy busy…..

Then there was graduation….what a busy day that was.

However it was worth it.

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Another dream fulfilled.  I am truly blessed.  I’m the one with the thumbs up :0)

As I sat with my classmates and I looked around I wondered if everyone was thinking the something. Now what?  I know I am looking forward to reading a book that does not include a quiz the next day or a comprehensive exam attached to it at the end 🙂  I am looking forward to a little R&R before I have to figure anything out.  I hope to work on my photography this summer and to get my house in order.  I have neglected it just a little bit.  I want to work on me.  To be the me that I am intended to be.  Who Am I here is a poem that has helped me out a lot along my journey…..

I AM ME – POEM by VIRGINIA SATIR

In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me.
Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine,
because I alone chose it
– I own everything about me:
my body,
my feelings,
my mouth,
my voice,
all my actions,
whether they be to others or myself.
I own my fantasies,
my dreams,
my hopes,
my fears.
I own my triumphs and successes,
all my failures and mistakes.
Because I own all of me,
I can become intimately acquainted with me.
By so doing,
I can love me and be friendly with all my parts.
I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me,
and other aspects that I do not know–
but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself,
I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me.
However I look and sound,
whatever I say and do,
and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time
is authentically me.
If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting,
I can discard that which is unfitting,
keep the rest,
and invent something new for that which I discarded.
I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do.
I have the tools to survive,
to be close to others,
to be productive,
and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me.
I own me,
and therefore,
I can engineer me.
I am me,
and I am Okay.

Here is to the next chapter of my life and to being me.  If you dream it you can be it!

 

Hugs,

Ohiophotogrl

 

 

Feb 7

First week of Feb has been odd!

SO here we are at the 7th day of February and it has really flown by. School feels like I just started yet I am a 4th of the way thru. My BFF had a birthday and that started out with a broken window. LOng story short they broke the window ($213 later) and took nothing. Now in theroy it could have been the cold and a rock but I’m not buying that…too many other weird things are happening around our home for it not to be a random accident but I could very well be wrong about that too :0)
I have kept up with my picture a day for a month and 6 days. Mr P has been a great addition to my creative side. People seem to like him as well.
It is really weird looking around campus and seeing all the young kids looking at the world as adults for the first time. If I could go back and talk to myself 25 years ago I think it would go something like this….

Hey you…..I know this is going to sound really odd but just listen. Spend as much time with your mom as you can you are going to loose her way before you are ready to….and call her each and everyday. You are going to be a lesbian and that is ok. Deal with it. Its not a bad thing. You are going to meet some people that will take advantage of you so you need to learn early to stand up for yourself and you will have less heart ache. You are going to have a great job opportunity. Stock money away but dont tell anyone that way you will still have some when you loose that great job. DOn’t let others tell you you cant do something, You are smarter then anyone even yourself give you credit for. Open up to the people close to you. They do care you just have to let them in.
How do you know that you are talking to the older version of you. Only you know that you had a falling in love with your now BFF long before either of you really knew or did anything about it. Your first apartment will be where you learn the most about yourself and who you are going to be. Learn and know that you are not as broken as you think you are. So with that I want you to know that you are not alone. Stand up for yourself and be the incredible person you are suppose to be.
Love, Me

With that I need to go to class.